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Dear U,
Hello, how are you? It's been more than ten years. Yeah, ten fucking years! Do you remembers those days? I could still remember everything. It's like yesterday. I could still remember the tears falling from your eyes. When you had your fierce fight but ended up lossing to the end. I know you reached the peak of everything that time and nobody can catch you. You let go of hope and tried to forget. You told yourself you won't push too hard by trying.
Yes, it was sunny day but your feeling was not appropriate to the mood of the weather. Your dear friend cannot utter any word because she has the same fate as yours. You both passed in entrance exam but ending up not having any slot available. You were so naive and the lack of information hinder your path. You were deprive from taking an examination from one of the prestigious university in the country and you knew you could give it a shot. You were still hopeful way back then. Your confidence was not yet drain to the gutter. I knew you let go. There was regret in your heart.
I remember you kept on searching on-line looking for a possible scholarship. I knew you found one but your father was not confident enough to follow your instruction. You took it to the heart. I knew you would do that because you hate disappointment. He never bother to go to your school to put the medal in your neck for being a second honor. Imagine, what kind of parents would decline that moment. You felt you're not good enough. That was a piece of junk and nobody would ever dare to buy that piece of metal. It was wrong in any way and you ended up asking your own teacher to do that job.
It was a rough road isn't it? How are you after? Did you give up your dreams? Dear U, I know time is not enough for all the things that you wanted to do in life. You are afraid of death and aging because you wanted to have a fulfillment in life. You sacrifice something because you think you can do it all at once. I remember you tried to save money out of you twenty pesos allowance in daily basis. You ending up not eating everyday and it will amazed us if we saw you eating a snack. We felt pity but we knew you are too proud and you don't want to see that from us. You don't want any weakness coming from you. We thought it was a hunger strike. You always put priority on studies rather than food. I wonder why you never get sick from that. We knew you were so strict as a leader. Even the corps commander was afraid of you when you were only a battalion leader.
Dear U, I know our life together was not the happy moment of yours but we've been together for more than ten fucking years. You always compare everything you left behind to what we have. I knew you would never left your kingdom if not for a good reason. I saw the hatred in your eyes everytime you would tell a story about giving up what you started to build for your future. You were branded as liar for making up a story. That you wanted to be in the city rather in the province and you should have told that upfront rather than making a story. Isn't it great? I feel you! I know where you're coming from. And yet the person who said that is not even educated enough to even understand her own self. You became tough out of the scars. You have a lot of wounds that needs to heal. I know you can heal yourself.
Dear U, I am happy for slow phase but you still keep on trying. You never throw your dreams. You were lost but you always bounce back. You always find the right way to keep on moving forward.
Dear U, Congratulations for being a UP student! You still have a long way of journey. Bon voyage!
Lovingly Yours,
Me
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